Monday, November 23, 2009
baby♥ ,it seems like i am not that good as a girlfriend after all. i duno how far we're able to walk. though my dreams were very far. i doubt you can take my temper , i doubt you can handle me. you've been so pampered with your ex but till this date , i've never pampered you. besides troubles and stress , i doubt i've given you any happiness. guess my thought of walking years with you are crashed. but till this date , im still glad i met uu and became yours. it seems like my appearance has jinxed uu. making your life seems worse dens ever.
FCUK MY LIFE !
I JUST FAIL IN EVERYTHING.
I SERIOUSLY DUNO WHY AM I BORN.
I DUNO WHY THE FCUK AM I IN THIS WORLD.
WHY AM I NOT DEAD ?
WHY AM I NOT KILLED ?
FCUK MY LIFE.
FCUK MY WORLD.
I AM JUST FATED TO BE ALONE.
CAUSE NO MATTER WHO I AM WITH.
THAT PERSON IS NEVER HAPPY AT ALL !
CHERIE NEO WILL CEASE TO EXIST FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS !
GOODBYE WORLD !
GOODBYE EARTH !
GOODBYE ALL ~
dinner and dance ~
just back from dinner and dance. but i'm starting to miss baby so bloody much. friday another day at factory. this time $80 plus the other time $50. hope chalet will have enough money. was at baby♥ place till 3pm dens headed to aunty amy's place to meet dad and mum for company function. blablabla lazy to type also.
i wonder what's baby♥ doing now. call bo answer. sms bo reply. got sleep until so sound ma ? i miss uu so fcuking much laa. hais. thought wan to go over to meet baby♥ but she sleep until so soundly. spoil my mood. whatever laa. dowan bother and spoil my mood further. i go do my things le.
i doubt i'll see uu outside my school tml. goodnights.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
updates !!
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Firstly , happy 20th birthday my sweetest darling !!♥ I did wish her on that day. Haha. I didn't forget. Haha. Hope uu like the present we (laopo , adnan , baby and me) got for uu.
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Aint these two cute ? Haha. They're baby's niece and nephew. They are super duper adoreable. Haha. Super love them to the max !
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Baby and me , we're doing very well. Haha !!
Now a little short update.
I've been staying at baby's house for nearly a month now. haha. Really enjoy her company. ^_^ though we're a little cash tight now , but nevertheless , baby still gives me all she can. Aint baby sweet ? Heehee. Darling and me , we're still as close and crazy as ever ! Haha. Going out together , shopping and everything.
Our chalet is coming so very soon. Cant wait for it laa. Heehee. There is christmas shopping this year too. Just darling , baby and me. Not exactly buying for a lot of ppl. Haha. Darling and i were thinking of bringing our family out for dinner together ! But but but ... We're still deciding. Haha. Or maybe just the siblings so no need spend so much on presents. However ... We're still deciding. Haha.
no matter how big my friend circle is , only a handful are true friends. It's just that true. true friends are ppl that would stand by uu wen uu need them. Lend uu the shoulder wen uu need to cry. Remembering wen your special dates are and never leave uu aside. I am very certain laopo , adnan , mengyuan and darling are one of the few handful i call true friends.
Babydear♥ ,
Thank you for standing by me with my bunch of sweet friends. Giving me the courage and motivation. though at times i let uu down , but uu never fail to continue doting me. it's just so wonderful how god sent uu to me. With the never ending love i get from home plus the sweet wonderful love i get from uu , im just one of the luckiest girl ever. i love uu babydear♥. Always will , always do.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
my life ! ;D
i can live life now without being with you.
i can live life now without thinking of you.
i can live life now without dreaming of you.
i am confident , i am totally over you.
i am confident , i wont fall for you again.
i am confident , i do not need you anymore.
to baby♥ ,
it's really nice having uu in my life. time passes really slow for us. i want 6 years to pass faster ! clear off all the sickening debts. so we can save up for us ! to go holiday , shopping , do up your room and many many more ~ doesnt mean i look at his blog means i still have feelings for him. since i have uu now , there is no point thinking of him. he's my past tense , you are my present tense ;D haha ! i hope uu're happy wen you're with me. spending my nights at your place , going to cik nani's house for movies and all the other stuffs we do together , i am happy i agreed to be yours. baby♥ , i love uu ~
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
i wonder ..
i wish the debts are settled.
i wish 6yrs would just pass faster !
sometimes i just wonder ,
how much of her have you forgotten ?
sometimes i just wonder ,
have you exactly gotten over her ?
sometimes i just wonder ,
how much of your heart is occupied by me ?
sometimes i just wonder ,
have you totally given me your whole heart ?
sometimes i just wonder ,
maybe i am just thinking too much.
but sometimes i just want you to know ,
no matter how many " sometimes i just wonder " i have ,
you'll be the one i still love most !
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I HATE YOU !
I HATE YOU TO THE CORE !
I HATE YOU TO THE MAX !
I HATE YOU , BITCH !
i think it's time i have a private blog to vent my anger on.
people nowadays really cant think. i wonder what is the brain doing in the head ! to help them to act stupid , foolish and childish ? ohh please ! I REALLY DUNO HOW ADULTS THINK ! what is dens correct ? break le , still go find STUPID reason to meet MY boyf. dont uu have ur own ? what is it that is still unclear ? break de person also is uu. dowan patch de also is uu. wan come find problem also is uu. KNN PCB ! BITCH , SLUT , WHORE ! so what are uu gona say to MY boyf ? " actually i still love uu , but i know the time's up ? / i still cant get uu out of my mind , but i also dun why i go with that guy. / do uu really love that girl you are with now ? " I AM FCUKING GOING CRAZY HERE LAA ! PPL ALREADY DOWAN CONTACT UU LE. PPL ALREADY CHANGE NUMBER LE. FIND FOR A REASONABLE PROBLEM , OK LAA. YOU ! FIND MY BOYF FOR STUPID AND RUBBISH REASON ! FCUK UU , GET IT ? UU AND YOU RUBBISH FRIENDS ! GOT BRAIN ALL CANNT THINK. ALL SO OLD LIAO STILL DUNO HOW TO THINK. STAB PAIKIA ? STAB SMUG ! OMG ~ NOW 21ST CENTURY LE LAA AUNTY ! SO OLD , NO MANNERS.
MEET HER MUST GO DINNER MEHS ? MEET HER MUST MEET UNTIL WOODLANDS MEHS ? MEET HER DENS NO NEED ANSWER PHONE IS IT ? MEET HER MUST TALK UNTIL SO LATE MEHS ?
AND YES , IF I COULD MAKE THE CHOICE I WISH YOU'D NEVER GO MEET HER ! I HATE IT WEN UU MEET HER. CAUSE OF HER , UU FEEL CHEATED , UU FEEL THIS , UU FEEL THAT. DEN ME LEIS ? ME LEIS ? I NOT HUMAN IS IT ? AND YES , I AM FEELING SUPER UNHAPPY. SUPER IRRITATED ! IM UNREASONABLE ? IM CHILDISH ? IM NAIVE ? SAY WHATEVER UU WANT ! MY BLOG , I RANT WHATEVER SHIT I LIKE !
THIS IS HOW MUCH I HATE HER. AND HOW MUCH I WISH SHE WOULD FCUK OFF FROM MY LOVE LIFE. AND THE ONLY WAY I'D STOP MY HATRED FOR HER , IS WEN SHE COMES AND TELL ME IT'S MY BOYF THAT IS FINDING HER , NOT SHE FINDING HIM !
CAN UU PLEASE FCUK OFF FROM MY LIFE , BITCH !